Sunday 8 February 2015
Friday 23 August 2013
19 lbs to next target ...
I know I said I wouldn't check in until I had lost another 30 lbs and I won't post a pic until I have ... BUT I wanted to share that I have dropped 2 back sizes ... Whooo Hooo!!!
Sunday 4 August 2013
After the Break ...
Been FOR AGES!!! I'll explain. I've had a wake up call in the form of Scoriatic Arthritis ... Not good, debilitating. So ... I'm on my way to losing the best part of 90 pounds. I'm 30 down with another 60 to go.
So this was me 30lbs ago
And this is me now, a third of the way there
So how have I done it? I've given myself permission to be worth more, in effect to have a complete mental shift. I was an emotional eater. Once I identified that AND owned it I knew I had the power to control it.
I also knew I had been told by a well meaning if horrendously misguided Grandmother and Great Grandmother that I had a weight problem from about 6/7 years old 'You'd be so Bonny if you just lost that weight' replaced by 'When are you losing this weight, come on, for me' Both of which made me eat for comfort to stop the tears and the hurt. I didn't have a weight issue at the time, I was well built but certainly not fat, however by the time I was in my Teens I had a well developed weight problem thanks to their intervention.
That stayed with me until I let it go 4 years ago. It has taken me this long to expunge the hurt from those repeated words and to no longer 'need it' ... anyone with a weight issue will get the whole 'needing the excuse' thing. I decided I'm better than that and deserve more.
I researched the tools I needed to succeed and STAY successful. I've sorted out my current Basal Metabolic Rate, or BMR and created a series of menus to keep my Totally Daily Expenditure or TDEE above nutritional deprivation but below excess calories, which is a fine line. I of course add in the exercise I do which is 40 minutes of intense swimming 5 days a week and make the allowances for that in the TDEE.
In line with current thinking My exercise level will be upped to include 30 minutes of low impact high exertion gym work 3 times a week when I expect to hit plateau at about 30 lbs to go. I'm not taking diet shakes, or food replacement or any kind of slimming club, many of which don't show any kind of long term weight loss success. I have however totally changed my lifestyle and more importantly my entire mindset. Truly, it's hard work.
It takes a supreme amount of effort to ignore the internal me jumping up and down begging for sweet treats to 'make it all better'. But I've noticed there is a louder voice which is the voice of my internal fitness coach. Their voice booms and has made me both teetotal and very aware of not eating pap as both are totally counterproductive. I've cut out aspartame, processed food and cut my sugar intake by 90%, all of which has been tough, there have been tears and there have been moments when I wanted to give up, I realised I'm stronger than that.
This is not a diet, it is a new way of life. It is NOT for everyone, it takes continual mindfulness and a body awareness I didn't know I had - It takes daily commitment.
Our whole family has made the shift, we walk much more, we eat less and better, we spend more time doing family activities which include exercise instead of food, we've replaced going for a fun picnic with going to play a fun game of Cricket and a picnic. My partner who is doing as well as I am has found the same mental shift taking place and is amazed at how intense the feeling of satisfaction is knowing you're strong enough to choose not to fail.
I'll check when I'm another 301bs down!
So this was me 30lbs ago
And this is me now, a third of the way there
So how have I done it? I've given myself permission to be worth more, in effect to have a complete mental shift. I was an emotional eater. Once I identified that AND owned it I knew I had the power to control it.
I also knew I had been told by a well meaning if horrendously misguided Grandmother and Great Grandmother that I had a weight problem from about 6/7 years old 'You'd be so Bonny if you just lost that weight' replaced by 'When are you losing this weight, come on, for me' Both of which made me eat for comfort to stop the tears and the hurt. I didn't have a weight issue at the time, I was well built but certainly not fat, however by the time I was in my Teens I had a well developed weight problem thanks to their intervention.
That stayed with me until I let it go 4 years ago. It has taken me this long to expunge the hurt from those repeated words and to no longer 'need it' ... anyone with a weight issue will get the whole 'needing the excuse' thing. I decided I'm better than that and deserve more.
I researched the tools I needed to succeed and STAY successful. I've sorted out my current Basal Metabolic Rate, or BMR and created a series of menus to keep my Totally Daily Expenditure or TDEE above nutritional deprivation but below excess calories, which is a fine line. I of course add in the exercise I do which is 40 minutes of intense swimming 5 days a week and make the allowances for that in the TDEE.
In line with current thinking My exercise level will be upped to include 30 minutes of low impact high exertion gym work 3 times a week when I expect to hit plateau at about 30 lbs to go. I'm not taking diet shakes, or food replacement or any kind of slimming club, many of which don't show any kind of long term weight loss success. I have however totally changed my lifestyle and more importantly my entire mindset. Truly, it's hard work.
It takes a supreme amount of effort to ignore the internal me jumping up and down begging for sweet treats to 'make it all better'. But I've noticed there is a louder voice which is the voice of my internal fitness coach. Their voice booms and has made me both teetotal and very aware of not eating pap as both are totally counterproductive. I've cut out aspartame, processed food and cut my sugar intake by 90%, all of which has been tough, there have been tears and there have been moments when I wanted to give up, I realised I'm stronger than that.
This is not a diet, it is a new way of life. It is NOT for everyone, it takes continual mindfulness and a body awareness I didn't know I had - It takes daily commitment.
Our whole family has made the shift, we walk much more, we eat less and better, we spend more time doing family activities which include exercise instead of food, we've replaced going for a fun picnic with going to play a fun game of Cricket and a picnic. My partner who is doing as well as I am has found the same mental shift taking place and is amazed at how intense the feeling of satisfaction is knowing you're strong enough to choose not to fail.
I'll check when I'm another 301bs down!
Tuesday 11 June 2013
Been a hiatus!
Back after an extending period of making, I FINALLY have the pictures I promised you weeeks ago! All these pieces are availalable at out Etsy shop http://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/BessandRoseVintage
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This is a GORGEOUS Protective charms bracelet
Beautiful Vintage rose Brooch
Stunning Tribal choker
Pierced Buttons Pendant!
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Fantastic Felt Wool Flowers on Ebay!
There is loads more on Etsy :)
There will be some gorgeous rings coming soon.
Thursday 30 May 2013
Shiny Things ...
What a productive week! Lots of beautiful shiny things have been made. Photo's soon to follow :)
Friday 24 May 2013
Something For The Weekend ...
So here I am 33 years old and about to undergo a mahoosive personal change. Oh yes folks, I'm going to have to learn to look fetching in crutches :/
OK so an explanation. Basically I have some weird form of Arthritis which is fairly aggressive and renders one nicely immobile for long periods. Marvellous. Any-way. It has meant a couple of radical changes. One of which is ... DUM DUM DUMMMMMM Diet. Oh yes folks the girl has had to curb her food intake. This has NOT made me a happy bunny let me tell you! Still I'm managing. I already can't 'do' Dairy or chocolate and have large quantities of veg and fruit in my diet so not too bad. But still I need to knock my KCAL consumption down a bit to ensure my lack of mobility does not mean I end up resembling my house.
My diet currently involves lots of fruit, coffee and veg soup (made from actual veg) with a sprinkling of white meat, fish and the odd slice of seed bread. Yeah see the bad boy among that lot??? COFFEEEEEE I tell you now if ANYONE, even my BEAUTIFUL Wife, tries to get between me and my Java in the morning - I am likely to leave entrails in my wake. It is currently the ONLY reason I get up in the morning. I get up I get Coffee the world is a shiny place. So I know I should be drinking water. Meh Coffee HAS water. It's like its main component! So yeah, I admit it - Coffee is currently my main saviour against a fairly banal diet.
For example
Breakfast: 1 slice of Seed bread toasted with Sugar free jam and vitalite. 1 apple and COFFEE
elevensies: 1 cereal bar and COFFEE
Lunch: Veg soup
Afternoon snack: 1 apple and COFFEE
Dinner: chicken or fish or quorn mince bolognaise
with either
veg and a small jacket or cheese free cauli cheese or salad or 50g whole wheat pasta
COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE
Supper: 'Ice cream' basically 1/2 cup frozen fresh fruit whizzed up with 1/4 cup 0% fat Greek style goat yogurt.
and COFFEEEEEE
and it is the same EVERY DAY ...
We're a week in so far and coping OK. Although I do have to admit I bought a Reese's Giant Peanut Cup in the sweet shop today (took the kids in, it was not a dieters S&M visit lol). It is now in the fridge 'lurking' I know that if I eat it several things will happen. It will:
A) open the flood gates to a world of chocolate I have so far managed to ignore, knowing it makes me ill - I was I think actually addicted.
B) cause a whole world of hurt
C) make me feel like shite
D) give me an excuse to have a weekend binge.
NONE OF WHICH ARE GOOD. So in the fridge it will stay until I can manage to square chucking 75p in the bin ... hopefully. We'll see how it goes!
OK so an explanation. Basically I have some weird form of Arthritis which is fairly aggressive and renders one nicely immobile for long periods. Marvellous. Any-way. It has meant a couple of radical changes. One of which is ... DUM DUM DUMMMMMM Diet. Oh yes folks the girl has had to curb her food intake. This has NOT made me a happy bunny let me tell you! Still I'm managing. I already can't 'do' Dairy or chocolate and have large quantities of veg and fruit in my diet so not too bad. But still I need to knock my KCAL consumption down a bit to ensure my lack of mobility does not mean I end up resembling my house.
My diet currently involves lots of fruit, coffee and veg soup (made from actual veg) with a sprinkling of white meat, fish and the odd slice of seed bread. Yeah see the bad boy among that lot??? COFFEEEEEE I tell you now if ANYONE, even my BEAUTIFUL Wife, tries to get between me and my Java in the morning - I am likely to leave entrails in my wake. It is currently the ONLY reason I get up in the morning. I get up I get Coffee the world is a shiny place. So I know I should be drinking water. Meh Coffee HAS water. It's like its main component! So yeah, I admit it - Coffee is currently my main saviour against a fairly banal diet.
For example
Breakfast: 1 slice of Seed bread toasted with Sugar free jam and vitalite. 1 apple and COFFEE
elevensies: 1 cereal bar and COFFEE
Lunch: Veg soup
Afternoon snack: 1 apple and COFFEE
Dinner: chicken or fish or quorn mince bolognaise
with either
veg and a small jacket or cheese free cauli cheese or salad or 50g whole wheat pasta
COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE
Supper: 'Ice cream' basically 1/2 cup frozen fresh fruit whizzed up with 1/4 cup 0% fat Greek style goat yogurt.
and COFFEEEEEE
and it is the same EVERY DAY ...
We're a week in so far and coping OK. Although I do have to admit I bought a Reese's Giant Peanut Cup in the sweet shop today (took the kids in, it was not a dieters S&M visit lol). It is now in the fridge 'lurking' I know that if I eat it several things will happen. It will:
A) open the flood gates to a world of chocolate I have so far managed to ignore, knowing it makes me ill - I was I think actually addicted.
B) cause a whole world of hurt
C) make me feel like shite
D) give me an excuse to have a weekend binge.
NONE OF WHICH ARE GOOD. So in the fridge it will stay until I can manage to square chucking 75p in the bin ... hopefully. We'll see how it goes!
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